Did a hard thing the other day

One of those things that, from the outside, doesn't look hard, shouldn't be hard, and is a silly thing to be nervous about. And, still, it was hard. Mentally, emotionally. The task was objectively not hard.Part of it involved getting a number and waiting for number to be called. And the number I got was...

Welcoming Mabontide; a writing meditation

“What are we watching?” He flops down next to me on the floor, copying my position almost exactly. A plush pillow that may or may not be a stuffed unicorn with a rainbow tail is tucked under his armpits, propping his chest up. Elbows bend as he rests his chin in his hands. The warmth...

Life Update

TL;DR: Migraines. It is amazing how heavy expectation and anticipation can be. I’ve decided that I want to write here more (ever) and that I miss the ease with which I used to just pour words onto the page and share the things I feel vulnerable about. I’ve missed using the written word to process ...

Migraine update

January was utter hell, migraine wise. Missed 6 days of work, had 10 migraines with pain, three migraines without pain (I swear those are more dangerous, because at least when I'm in the thick of the pain I *know* I'm not of sound mind. The sneaker migraines trick me into thinking I'm okay, and then...

Listen

Listen. He tips his head in the direction of the window, indicating outside yet somehow making it clear that he really means, listen inward. I pause, when what I want to do is continue on in the manner I had been going, because that’s . . . what? The habit? But, no. Pause, and listen,...

Listing/Thinking Things out/Writing is my therapy

ADHD. Let's talk about it. And, let's insert the caveat here that I am not a doctor. Neither, for that matter, is Dr. Google. Can I really decide that this is The Thing and it isn't something else? I mean, yes and no? I can say that I know myself, and the inside of my...

A Name Change

I've attempted this before, way back when my spiritual practice with Poseidon went on its sabbatical. I came back to Strip Me Back to the Bone, because it felt the most like "me/my space" than anything else I came up with. And, I still love the phrase, and the imagery it invokes. I love its...

Life: A Study in Bullet Points

Update in Bullet Points and No Particular Order: Work/Life balance: I don’t have one currently. I’ve spent the last two weeks working some serious OT in hopes of getting caught up on things. Too much OT, so I’m scaling back. I have a dog who misses me, a wife who misses me, and cats who...

Am Writing?

I chatted with a friend about writing a few weeks ago. Mostly their writing. Coffee and Cat Hair — A Writing Meditation I want to say they’re crowding me in, but the only sense of urgency I pick up is coming from within me, not from those around me. Well, fuck. Fuck. I want to...

More brain-dump.

Current worries include: Health shit. There's some snafu going on with getting us scheduled in with a new doctor and getting refills on various Rxs. I'll be problem solving once they open, as the snafu has only just today become apparent. It will be fine in the sense that none of our medications are necessary...