shameless plug: Patreon supporters gain access to my blog posts before the rest of the world does. There's some other perks you might want to check out, too. I have a habit of holding things inside. You might not guess that, based on how transparent I strive to be with what I share here. … Continue reading Holding things in, Letting them out.
and because I'm mad into lists right now . . . Depression. Once upon a time, back in May? June? when I had my last check in with my doctor, she expressed a desire to see about having me come down on my medication, or completely off, beginning in March. I'm on 20mg of fluoxetine. … Continue reading Confessions, or saying out loud the things I want to keep most quiet.
I've been quiet and withdrawn for a few months now. In part, I've been adjusting to life with medication that helps keep everything from being super overwhelming. In part, I've been working over time at the day job and have had precious little time to spare for being around on line. In part, I'm dealing with … Continue reading So . . . things are happening.
and I don't want to. I don't want to talk about how my anxiety has gotten so bad, and my depression has also gotten worse, that all my mental wherewithal goes into staying detached from what my mind tries to tell me about myself (worthless, pointless, hopeless, pathetic). I don't want to talk about how … Continue reading Today I’m going to talk to my doctor about needing help
Let's just file this under Keeping It Real, shall we? It's been building for a while. I haven't written any substantial fiction since the wee beginning of January - I'd wanted to have WWC totally done (and it's dancing at close to done as I write) long before now. I'd wanted to have moved on … Continue reading I’m not okay right now.
So, I'm not all that good right now. It's a number of things (retailhell season, anniversary of my grandmother's death which generally make me think of them both as they were good enough to die in the same year and also because, hey, we buried her on my grandfather's birthday--HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIPPY, LOOK WHAT WE … Continue reading I am held.
It's almost as if admitting to fighting apathy right now made it stronger. Maybe it just meant I didn't have to pretend as much right now. For all that I want to Keep It Real, I also try to make my writing positive, or uplifting, or cheerleady. I'm trying really, really hard to be the … Continue reading People That Make My World Better
Recently, someone asked me how I dealt with apathy when it comes up. I'm not sure that I can really talk apathy's role in my life and how I deal with it, without starting at the beginning. Feel free to jump to the bullet points if TL;DR. Disclaimer: I am not a medical professional. This is … Continue reading Apathy as a response to Anxiety, and Depression is an asshole, too.
As mentioned previously, I've been overwhelmed a lot recently. It's not a matter of too many bids for my time; the choices I've made in how I live my life on a day to day basis, coupled with the litany Odin frequently has me chant regarding the Hierarchy of Obligation that I owe to o/Others … Continue reading Clawing Back to Good
WK 1- Feb. 2- Humanity- How do you define “humanity”? What is your contribution to the collective space of humanity? How does your spiritual path support this definition and contributions?Note: we will be exploring some of what you all share as your practices more deeply in the months ahead, so don’t hold back in giving … Continue reading Oh, the humanity; or Compassion and Poseidon (The Pagan Experience week 5)