Holding things in, Letting them out.

shameless plug: Patreon supporters gain access to my blog posts before the rest of the world does. There’s some other perks you might want to check out, too.   I have a habit of holding things inside. You might not guess that, based on how transparent I strive to be with what I share here….

Short admin update: I’m back.

The other site is not working for me. It feels dishonest, and just unrooted/uprooted/something, having so much of my past writing about Him and me and u/Us, separated from the current writing. I’ve moved posts from the 2.0 site to here. This is going back to my active blog, though, ‘active’ is not going to…

Unveiled

So, this happened. A week ago, I chopped my hair off. (So did Beth. Coat tails, you know.) ( ❤ ) Or rather, I paid someone to chop it off for me. I have thin hair, have always had thin hair, have an annoying cowlick that likes to pass as a balding spot, and the…

Reclaiming Spoons, without grace

  My secret isn’t all that well kept of one, since anyone who has been reading my writing for any amount of time can name it: I have depression, with a side helping of anxiety. For the longest, longest time, I thought it was the other way ‘round. Treatment has given me clarity. My secret…

Happy Birthday, Matsya!

There are things I want to write about this, but right now, you get pictures. I need a few days to sit with this. All the above are pre-ritual steps that took place at least a week before the ritual. Historically I’ve been extremely not good at preparing in advance, so I’m sort of amazed…

Writing Check-In

  For those of you not following my FB or my Patreon campaign: I’ve made some changes to my Patreon campaign that will go live April 1st. A few things prompted these changes, but primarily it’s been burnout. I started producing four to five thousand words of content monthly in 2014, and it’s been awesome…

More thoughts on things.

    Not long ago — last week, the week before — Beth asked me, “When does that feeling go away? The one where it feels like the ground has been pulled out from under you, and everything has changed while nothing at all has? The one that makes you feel like you know absolutely…

Secret Confessions, Secret Worries

The first is a secret that didn’t start out as a secret, so much as it was something I didn’t want to write about and has since taken on the weight of a secret: On Corbie J. Day, not even half an hour before I had to go to work, with less than 3 hours…

Ten

  Well, we made it. Didn’t think we would. The good days still out-number the bad, though we’re getting closer to the end of being able to finagle his meds around. I had a long recap typed up, but instead: pictures. Help us celebrate Corbie J. Day by hugging your loved ones close, regardless of…

Well Hello, Beloved.

Funny thing happened. I decided that I would mark Matsya’s birthday this coming March. Why Matsya’s birthday? As I touched upon in my last post, partially as a sign of getting over myself already. It’s been over two years since “Hey, maybe also Vishnu?” was dropped on me, and while I’ve converted the shrine I’ve…

    Is this my fate, to deny the face my beloved wears? To resist, to push back? When He first came to me, when He first introduced Himself, I balked at the name He offered. I tell that part of the story a lot, because it amuses me now, the audacity of it. When…