Ever since I revamped the Poseidon shrine in the main room, making a place on it to honor Vishnu-with-Poseidon, I’ve been avoiding it. Oh, I held my Vigil observances there with no problem, but I find I neglect the tea offerings in the morning, preferring to go without the tea rather than face this mind-fuckery that is “I am and also I am not” that He’s landed me with.
I’m not sure how much longer I’m going to give this before I decide to rearrange things again and maybe move the Vishnu icon into the bedroom shrine. Maybe I need to make that personal connection before I make it ‘official’? I don’t know.I don’t know.
Disgruntled about that this morning, but I’m also on the second day of a super fun period cycle, and maybe just maybe I need to cut myself some freaking slack.