I’m learning to ask for help when I need it. It’s hard. It’s painful. It’s embarrassing, and if it was just me, I’d likely continue to suffer in silence rather than be a burden others – except I know that I like to help when I can, when people in my life need help, and I would hate for anyone to suffer in silence, and since I’m not actually special, this means I deserve that much consideration from myself, as well.
I’m starting a GoFundMe campaign to help offset the rising medical debt that Beth and I are accruing. My goal is $1200, with an eye to getting us caught up. Because I want to be as transparent as I possibly can, I’m going to bore you with numbers, and financial embarrassment be damned.
Our health insurance sort of sucks. I’m grateful that we have it at all, but it’s the sort of insurance that is good if you’re seeing a doctor once a year. I’m paying down a bill from the two visits I had to address my almost suicidal depression and anxiety, to the tune of $250. Beth’s current bill is just under $180. These would be manageable on our own if Corbie hadn’t have just had an emergency vet trip, and if we didn’t need to keep going to the doctor. Alas, our current doctor (one of the few on my insurance, in our area, and willing to deal with chronic pain issues) requires that we see her to get new prescriptions; for Beth that winds up being quarterly. I have another visit this week to get some skin stuff checked out and to get squared with my dosage for the antidepressant, and hopefully that’ll be the last one for a while. I also owe money to our urgent care people ($200) which I’ve been ignoring because there’s only so much I can look at, at any given time.
This would all have been fine, except as Beth wrote about, changes Etsy has made has slowed down business at her shop since April. Things were tight enough in May that we put off paying our utility bill, hoping to get caught up in June – but then Corbie needed to see the doctor, and Beth found out that she’s going to owe a few hundred in late fees for her state taxes.
And we still need to pay over $100 each month for Corbie’s heart medication.
I’m dropping my phone service, so that we’ll only have a house phone, which frees up $50 to cover the monthly payment with the IRS. We’re spending my next day off going through our books to see what we have to sell. Beth’s working hard to get more items up and different items up, and it breaks my heart that she’s even thinking about trying to find a part time job outside of the home, because she really, really can’t actually do that. Between her digestive issues, her pain issues, and the fibro fog, having her out, in public, on her own, terrifies me. I want to keep her working from home at all costs — and she is looking into part time jobs that she might be able to do from home. We’re not spinning our wheels and bitching here. All that said, I think we’d be okay – providing NOTHING ELSE HAPPENS (I’m looking at you, Corbie!) – if we could get the medical bills caught up, have money earmarked for the next immediate visits for each of us, and get our utilities caught up. So, that’s what we’re asking for help with.
Ah, but we’re not asking for help, with nothing to give in return!
Anyone who donates $30 will receive: one e-book of Beth’s and one e-book of mine, of your choosing, and 10 sticks of Beth’s amazing incense.
Anyone who donates $50 will be granted access to my story subscription, and will receive all the installments for 2016, access to subscriber-exclusive material, one e-book of Beth’s and one of mine, of your choosing, and ten sticks of Beth’s amazing incense.
Anyone who donates $75 will receive a Beth-and-Jolene Writing Bundle – ALL of our e-books, access to my story subscription for 2016, access to subscriber-exclusive material, and 20 sticks of Beth’s amazing incense.
A donation of $100 or more will get you our undying gratitude, complete with tears, and! A Beth-and-Jolene Writing Bundle – ALL our e-books, all my past stories for the story subscription, access to the current subscription through 2016, access to subscriber-exclusive material, and 100 sticks of Beth’s amazing incense.
I’m hoping to have the GoFundMe live on Tuesday, sometime between going through all the books in storage to see what we’ll have to sell, and grocery shopping, and I’ll announce that once that happens. We’ll accept donations either through GoFundMe, once that’s up, or through PayPal (firstname.lastname@example.org), so you have flexibility in terms of how you donate. I was going to wait to post this until that was ready – all posh and together – but instead I’m fighting despair by posting this now.
. Anything helps. And keep us in your thoughts, because if anything else happens, I really don’t know what we’re going to do.